Life is Very Precious

The past 2-3 months I've been seriously considering thinking about getting a second job. And in these months I've realized something...I really love my free-time. And I actually have appreciated it, I haven't just wasted it, well, most days. I finished two books in record time, wrote a couple songs, slept more than 6 hours a night, bathed in the sunshine, watched a movie or two with mom and dad. Free time can present some wonderful opportunities to enjoy life and soak it in. I believe I've learned quite a few things in my recent free time...how to slow down and be still. How to be in the moments that matter and not get caught up in the moments that don't. 

Then, I went to dinner with the ladies...

And after my lame attempts of job-searching, the owner of the restaurant (a friend of one of my ladies) asked us if we knew of anybody that needed a part-time job! This position is exactly what I'd been looking for. Tips, little-to-no experience waitressing, flexible and part-time hours. By the end of dinner i had three shifts! I don't quite understand still how it all came together, but i realize now that its time to move on from such a grand amount a free time and pick up a little more responsibility. Not that I'll never have free-time again, much less of course, but still there. Since this second job I've felt much more motivated. Motivated with my first job, with school, with cleaning, with running errands. More focused. Less la-la. 

I know I do not deserve any credit in attaining this job. God knows my needs. What, when and how to provide. I wasn't even searching that night and He placed it right in front of me. I feel less stressed,  or maybe the word is fearful, now. And I don't think it's because I now have a fuller income, even though that is quite relieving, God has never stranded me and I've seen Him provide in seemingly impossible situations. No, I feel less (fill in the blank) now because He, again, has reminded me that He is right here with me. He never fails. He fills me with a peace in my deepest depth that only He knows how to find. 

I don't really know how to sort this out in a language whoever reads this will understand, but it's okay. I feel really wonderful right now. Way better than I thought I would after "sacrificing" my free time. And the free moments I get now, between my newly busy-fied schedule, I think I appreciate and cherish more than ever.

Life is very precious these days. I have wonderful parents, brothers, ladies & gent's, I've wept through good books and endured through not-so-good books, I've learned (not completely, yet) how to let go, how to trust and how to enjoy. I am so grateful.

Goodnight to the blog world, whoever you are, for now.